lalalas. i guess i've cheer up although we've broken up yesterday. you absolutely right! im happier without you. since you've already make up your mind to give up on me and to give up on our relationship. i've also really make up my mind not to wait for you. you didnt care about me. why should i. luckily i have my family's and xy's support. thank you people. you're wonderful. thanks for FINALLY telling me the truth. whatever you've said are all lies. and you still say you love me. hey. im not a three-year old kid anymore. so fuck off ok? i dont need you in my life. i still can go on happily. like i am now. im enjoying my life. not wasting my time thinking day and night of you. fuck you. because you ask me to trust you. so i tried my best and give you my 100% and that's the time you want to break. you promised me you wont be like other guys. so i really trusted you. i dont believe you'd give up on me because everytime i wanted to. you begged me to give you another chance. but in the end you said your feelings for me faded. you're obviously playing with me. fuck you again. bastard! we'll NEVER have another chance again. you can sms me everyday saying that you regreted that wanted to break like how you did today. but no matter what you do. i will NEVER trust you again. too many lies. im just blinded by love to believe you. i will show you im stronger than you. i will live my life better than yours!
lol. ok. i really feel much better. with my mother's advice and all. thanks. really. i never thought i could really stop all the pain after just one day. haha. today when over to xy's house and PLANNED to study science. but.. after having lunch and watching tv for around 3 hours. lol. we ended up having no mood to study. in the end we were talking about eye liner. haha. and watching DVDs. omg. it's so nice. and we had ICE-CREAM while watching. well, we watched for few hours and i have to leave to go my ah ma's house. i wanna continue watching de. idiot. next time watch ba. haha.
well, she showed me her photos when she's young. so cute sia! really. haha. got one skirt she wanted to wear and show me. then something very shocking and funny happen. shall not eleborate because she will kill me. haha. i laugh till i cant stop!
ok. then when it's around 7 plus. i accompanied her to north point to buy her dinner. then we headed to the interchange take 812. she alighted first and went home. both of us were tired after having fun for the whole day. we kept yawning on the bus. lol. went my ah ma house have dinner and watch anime on my sister's laptop. and then watch tv and play game using my sister's laptop again. then. time to go home. just nice jh smsed me ask me where am i. then realised jh and wj at a coffeeshop near my ah ma house. but didnt go find them larx. so tired liaox. want hurry go home sleep mahx.
shit man. i didnt study one bit at all today. what's gonna happen to my science paper 1 and dnt paper on monday? it's my last two papers. is it because too many people around me have already started their shopping spree because their Os have ended! lol. sianx half liaox. already not much studying mood left. lol. nvm I SHALL STUDY TML!
but tml going to jalan kayu to have roti prata with my family and relatives for breakfast. and off to view my sister's future home. (they already bought the house) yays. so excited. heard that the house is BIG! for her and her going-to-be husband larx. two people only. and i dreaming of having the room all by myself again! omg. im so excited. decided to have a tv in my room. right in front of my bed! so that i can lie on my bed and watch my tv shows. haha.
btw, i've replanned on how to spend my holidays. WITHOUT YOU BASTARD! haha. i've promised my mother to help her with the household chores. i will mummy. (: then im gonna train hard for my piano! im going to work long hours to earn and SAVE money for my own future. haha. i wont EVER EVER have the thinking of wanting to depend on any bastards anymore. nvm. i'll eleborate on my plans for my holidays next time. it's already a long entry. also, my mummy is angry. so i going to sleep.
good nights. (:
